I've set big intentions for 2015. And everything points to this being an incredible year for all of us. But, one thing keeps getting in my way. Its called the worry, doubt, fear monster. Now I take massive steps each day to counteract this monster. I do yoga every day. I meditate several times a day. And I use my crystals and tools to help me in my goal manifestation.
However, if I think about these goals too much, I panic. I know they are meant to be, but I get caught up in the "How they are going to happen" so much that I talk myself out of any good mojo I've given myself.
In the past few days, I've asked friends for insight, I've consulted my teachers and mentors, and I've done shit tons of meditating and praying to my guides for insight. And, I've made MAJOR changes in my life before that have come so easily I barely needed to try. So, I know how this stuff works and how it can divinely play out.
However, today I was feeling especially anxious about all of this 2015 goal stuff. I recalled the Full Moon ritual I participated in last night where we visualized writing down our goals, sealing them in an envelope, and passing them over to our Spirit Guides. Then we were supposed to forget about them. Let the Universe step in and drive this. I felt relieved.
Then I got a message, "Get out of your own way". I hadn't realized this, but it was true. I am sabotaging myself with all this worry, fear, and anxiety. I can't even enjoy my day. This isn't fun and definitely not what I want for this journey. I asked for guidance and I got it. But how do I even "get out of my own way". Then I received some words of wisdom from one my Circle sisters. Tiara said " letting go, surrendering, and giving Spirit space to move, so I can observe and wait for my energy to feel the tug that says 'here, now, move, act...now rest, breathe, and wait again.
This is true faith in the power of the Universe to care, nurture, and ultimately guide us to our Higher good.