The past week or so I've been crazy busy and my creative mind seems to have been put on hold. This means I'm not writing, drawing, or thinking creatively at all because I'm too mentally and physically tired.
The rhythm I was in seems to have stalled and I just want to rest. For the perfectionist in me, this isn't good. It's making me have those doubts. You know the ones, like "maybe I'm not good enough to keep doing this, so I should just quit". Or "everyone else's stuff is so much better, more creative, or useful than anything I'm doing that maybe I shouldn't even try".
This month in my women's circle, we are focused on setting intentions for 2015. I have picked 5 things. We went through a meditation exercise where we visioned these intentions as seeds. I held my 5 seeds in my hand and then we imagined planting these seeds in the ground. The plan is that they will stay there during winter and then in spring, these seeds will start to grow and we will begin working with them. I'm holding these 5 things pretty close to my heart right now, but they all center on being able to spend more time with my family and to opening my own business.
My current feelings are in contrast with this last exercise. So,what am I doing to bring myself back into alignment? I'm trying to meditate more, spend time each day thinking about my 5 things, and I'm art journaling. I'm also doing intuitive mandala drawing to try to better understand where these negative vibes are coming from. This practice is pretty cool and is the idea of Andrea at the Creative Dream Incubator. You can learn more about it here. I love Andrea's approach as she provides all the resources and tools you need to get in touch with your dreams and bring them to life. The process is lovely and it works, but you have to make the commitment to show up everyday and do the work.
I would love to hear from you if you've had a similar experience to mine. How did you get yourself back on track? Post your update in the comments below.
I'll keep updating here on how this is working for me. That's one reason I started this site so that I could document this journey and you can follow along. Who knows, my story may inspire you to start your own journey.
With much love, Tami